Today i choose LIFE

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Everything happens for a reason and everything is a result of a choice we made.

But what i got is not the result of a choice that one makes. Someone else made the choice, and unfortunately it was not meant to come my way.

But as Sir Oscar Wilde said “ there are moments when one has to choose between living one’s own life, fully, entirely, completely—or dragging out some false, shallow, degrading existence that the world in its hypocrisy demands. You have that moment now. Choose!”

Here I am again.

But Today I choose life.

If good or bad, I’ll see it down the line.
Sometimes I wish I could see the future, most of the times I’m glad I don’t know.
Paradise within will create true happiness, with or without a partner.
I decided I quit looking….why bother…….still got to work on myself first……if I don’t know what I really want, how could anybody else. The burden is on me, wouldn’t be fair to try to hold somebody else responsible for my own happiness.
The lessons I’ve learned will only do me good if I apply them correctly in the future.
and so far I’ve learned that I should stay out of relationships.
It doesn’t even matter if they lasted one year or ten, the point for me is…I could not make them last forever.
It’s hard to trust anymore and I refuse to risk having to start over again and again and again.
I’m just tired, getting too old to having to scrape myself off the floor again. I’m just afraid I guess that I will reach the point where I can’t pick myself up again.
And since nobody ever did it for me, nor offered to lend a hand…well then to hell with them all.

It was the ghost ship that didn’t carry us. There’s nothing to do but salute it from the shore.